Tag Archive: Shock


Okay. So it’s been a pretty long since I wrote my previous post. I was just absent due to my sheer boredom, a lack of happening life, my dull brain which was busy sucking on funny cartoon series.

My birthday went great. My sweet babe made my dream of having the perfect birthday come true. After that nothing great happened.

Anyhow, my college is about to open up in an another day and a half.

Am I looking forward?
–> Well, I was initially – till I didn’t get the shock that companies would be coming to recruit us in just few days.  Down

Am I geared up for something so huge and equally life changing?
–> No. Apparently I’m not even remotely eligible for it. Which totally sucks.

Another shock I got just a few minutes back, while I was accidentally surfing up my future, that I’m too late for that too.

So in short, I’m screwed up from top to bottom, without a glitch!

Am I scared?
–> Yes. Because I know most of my friends will be out, happy and joyfully in just a matter of few months with their aspirations and dreams in their hands, and I’ll be as usual just sitting and singing the songs of my procrastination.

Also the fact which scares me to death is : how I’ll tell my parents about my failure.

At times, I feel as if I should give up on everything.

Will it really make a difference?
–> I was a nobody and will be a nobody!

I thought I’ll make my parents proud, I’ll make them feel that I’m not who they think I am. But dang! I just let that dream of mine loose too. I feel frustrated, weak, incompetent. I have let myself down as usual. My perfect dream of having a  perfect life is perfectly shattered into perfect pieces. I feel like a loser. A mere weed in the ocean of beautiful pearl producing oysters.

They say, don’t lose hope. Everything will be alright. Also when God closes one door, he opens another one for you.

Failure

My question to them: When?   

With a…

Bang!

Well no, not really. God. Exams are finally over. Got done with the toughest semester throughout our engineering life. Couldn’t write in between because of my back to back exam schedule. :/

Anyhow, so it’s been the 2nd day of my vacation and I feel useless already. I have to go for internship for 6 weeks and I guess that is still pretty much undecided. Apart from that, exams went fine. Except one – DSP (Digital Signal Processing), which literally sucked. And I seriously felt like just jumping out of the window as soon as I saw the paper.

Studies apart, had few really nice moments and few shocking.

The good parts:

  1. Exams got over.
  2. I realized that I really can’t live without my boy. (I perpetually happens to me every other day).
  3. I purchased Gems in Restaurant City. (And I wasted them pretty quickly too.)
  4. Birthday update: 30 days left! so bloody excited!
The shocking part:
  1. One of my college teacher expired on the last day of our exam. He had an heart attack and then he fell from the first floor of our college and I guess he died. (I’m really sorry if he didn’t). And there was pool of blood on the ground floor, which made me dizzy and made me pretty nauseating during the paper. RIP to him. He was an amazing teacher (although he hadn’t taught us any subject till now). But he was one the happy teachers. And he’ll always be remembered. God bless his soul.
  2. The people whom I thought I could trust, turned out to be the worst backstabbers.  Me and my boy’s mutual friends, were jealous of him because of his wealth and other bullshit stuff. And because of my friendly nature, took me in a perverted way. So yes. We have plans to bash them up before we graduate.
And I never knew WordPress had some word limit condition. Sucks. And phew. Just made mini pizza’s for few family friends. And yes, they did turn out to be pretty awesome.
I’m so dead tired right now, just need a nice relaxing bed. And can anybody teach me Spanish? It sounds sex! And damn these summer vacations! I wanted to learn drums!!
Adios amigos!
😛
P.S.: I just ate Lindt Double Milk. What an orgasmic chocolate!
PPS: My dad’s off to France and Switzerland. Any amazing chocolate suggestions? Urgent! 😛 And is Goldkenn available there?