Tag Archive: Mind

Okay. I’ll confess from the bottom of my heart.

I love the exam season. I love how we get up everyday, pick up a book and start mugging things up. I love how, after the exam, we go back home – complaining how sad the paper was and whoever made it, should be electrocuted. Go to sleep, wake up, and start the same schedule all over again. The pressure of clearing exams is pretty much comforting in itself. Nobody cares how shabby you look (although I have seen this trait for girls in college, they tend to over dress during exams) or how much beard you’ve grown. The all nighters, texting friends how much syllabus they are leaving etc., is just satisfying.

Okay, we do whine about how it keeps going on and on – even more than stone-age might have lasted – but I won’t deny the fact, it just keeps me going in life. At least, I have something to look forward to. I mean look at me right now, vacations (yay! :|) are on, and nothing is motivating me to do something constructive. Even though if I started jotting down points, I’ll probably end up with incalculable list of things to get done and over with.
But pah! I’m just sitting, eating, sleeping and going through the news feeds from my friends on Facebook, reading how they are going to places to celebrate the end-of-exam time (few are still holidaying and few already got done with), few partying out with friends all day long or some leaving for their post-grad or jobs etc. And I’m just stuck here, with my silly brother – who hit me so hard yesterday, that I ended up crying (LOL on me!) and who doesn’t talk to me if I crept in the tiny space between him and the end of the bed.

*The part where I started losing it BIG time*

Fuck Indian society, to be honest. I hate how people are shallow on almost everything. I hate how we have to stick around with parents till we don’t get married or get a job out of your hometown. I hate the fact, that we have to live up with our folks money. I mean cmon, people, get a bloody fucking life. Open up. You see a couple getting cozy – guy is cheap and girl’s a slut. You see a girl wearing short skirt or shorts or anything revealing, it’s a ritual to get stared from all generations – and mostly in a negative way. You can’t step out after a certain period of time to meet your friends. People speak utter shit about you if someone’s jealous of you for something. I hate every moment of it. To be at the top, you must have greens ready to throw in hand, beauty or brains (not necessary even if it’s just beauty), swanky mansion with blings and expensive rides etc. How can you say India’s progressing if people don’t progress with their mindsets?

*The part where I regain my conscience*

India has a rich culture heritage where people from all over the world come to find their inner peace (well at least in few places). And people reach where they are with their efforts. Yes, few were born with platinum spoons in their mouth, but with the rest of the society, it’s hard work  and luck here and there. And I shouldn’t expect to have a win-win situation all the time. There will be defeats, points where you would just want to give up in life, but that’s the whole point of living right? And well, you can’t even expect people to change in a night too. If people are narrow-minded, then why fuss. Just get up and face it. They won’t change, you have to. Adapt to the environment, mold yourself accordingly. World, itself will start looking good. And one shouldn’t get intimidated by others. You are special in a way, just have to find it. Also, stop having issues with people around you. There are definitely million things about which you can worry about. Just ignore it and enjoy life.

So, overall I just realized, how bad hunger can strike your thoughts.

MORAL: Never stay hungry!



Get a life, L-who's-ers!

Mind your own business.

Something forgotten by most of us.

Today, my brother’s senior high result came out, which sort of decides his future (the viewpoint of everyone living here in India). Luckily, his result turned out a lot better than we expected – but not leveling up to his peers. Well, competition is tough, so no blame.

Anyhow, well almost everyone who knew about it started ringing up to congratulate etc. But out of those, there are always one or two, who are always heads up about their own kids rather than others. So, there were few acquaintances of ours, who called up my mom to ask her about the result.

So what exactly the conversation was, I have absolutely no clue. But this is what I interpreted from what my mom told me:

Aunty 1: So, how was his result?
Mom: Eehh. Fine. Scored 88%.
Aunty 1: Hmm. Not that good. He does seem to have the caliber though.
Mom: Yeah. But we are pretty satisfied with this too.
Aunty 1: I doubt you should be. I mean my son got 90% something.
Mom: *hsjdgsjkh* Hmm. Okay.
Aunty 1: <<Blabbers about her friends who secured something around 90 plus minus etc>>
Mom: *STFU you freaking moron. I really don’t care about you or your bloody fake life, you pretentious little bitch*
Aunty 1: <<Still blabbers something about his kid, on how he’s so good in academics etc etc>>
Mom (angrily): Okay. Listen up lady, my kid does everything. He helps out with household chores, drives up even at 12 am to help someone in need etc. He’s not like other bloody kid who just sits at home stuck to his book and getting all arrogant about it. *In your face* (She was pin pointing to her kid)
Aunty 1: <<perhaps silent>> Okay.
Mom Hangs up.

NOTE: All the statements between ” * * ” and  ” << >> ” is what would be going in their minds.

So that was more like “Take that suckaa..!” from my mom to her. And I liked it.

But my brother totally went all haloed on it and said, “You shouldn’t have done that. It’s alright. We should just stay focused on our lives rather than poisoning it with hate for other people. And other people commenting shouldn’t really bother you at all.” I agreed. And she went all happy on how great her kid is. XD

But this sort of thing happened with few more aunties who chit chatted with my mum. And one of them came to us too.

Anyho, I always learn something or the other from him, although he is 3.5 years younger to me. But he is more sensible. I’m still a kid. And whenever I need some guy advice or any other stuff, I go to him.

Apart from that:

Exams from tomorrow. Wish me luck. And I completely forgot:

  1. The weather’s back to 43 degrees. Like I said.
  2. I just have 5 hours in all (even though my exam starts at 2 pm) to complete up with more than 7 lengthy chapters. And microprocessors sucks.
  3. Shit. I forgot this one.
Days remaining for my birthday: 47!
And maybe I think too much or it’s really true but I really wanna put up this question:
Do guys get all unromantic and focused more during exams?
Are girls really emotional freaks? (My answer to this: Yes.)
Because apparently my boy (okay. I’ll take the blame for this) doesn’t really bother up much these days. And he said that he really loved me. And now for him it’s more like, “I really don’t care”. (Perhaps this is because of my attitude. And I made him all fucked up with me, which is totally acceptable for his current behavior. But yeah. I do love him.)
Okay. And yes. Chances for this might being my last post are pretty high. Because if he reads this, he’ll definitely kill me.
Peace my little minions! 😛
And yes. He might even kill me for the fact that I even thought that he would kill me for mentioning him. Or that he doesn’t love me anymore. Or how much I think. Or anything.
Okay. I do think a lot.