Tag Archive: Loser


Okay. So it’s been a pretty long since I wrote my previous post. I was just absent due to my sheer boredom, a lack of happening life, my dull brain which was busy sucking on funny cartoon series.

My birthday went great. My sweet babe made my dream of having the perfect birthday come true. After that nothing great happened.

Anyhow, my college is about to open up in an another day and a half.

Am I looking forward?
–> Well, I was initially – till I didn’t get the shock that companies would be coming to recruit us in just few days.  Down

Am I geared up for something so huge and equally life changing?
–> No. Apparently I’m not even remotely eligible for it. Which totally sucks.

Another shock I got just a few minutes back, while I was accidentally surfing up my future, that I’m too late for that too.

So in short, I’m screwed up from top to bottom, without a glitch!

Am I scared?
–> Yes. Because I know most of my friends will be out, happy and joyfully in just a matter of few months with their aspirations and dreams in their hands, and I’ll be as usual just sitting and singing the songs of my procrastination.

Also the fact which scares me to death is : how I’ll tell my parents about my failure.

At times, I feel as if I should give up on everything.

Will it really make a difference?
–> I was a nobody and will be a nobody!

I thought I’ll make my parents proud, I’ll make them feel that I’m not who they think I am. But dang! I just let that dream of mine loose too. I feel frustrated, weak, incompetent. I have let myself down as usual. My perfect dream of having a  perfect life is perfectly shattered into perfect pieces. I feel like a loser. A mere weed in the ocean of beautiful pearl producing oysters.

They say, don’t lose hope. Everything will be alright. Also when God closes one door, he opens another one for you.

Failure

My question to them: When?   

M.Y.O.B.

MYOB, M.Y.O.B.

Get a life, L-who's-ers!

Mind your own business.

Something forgotten by most of us.

Today, my brother’s senior high result came out, which sort of decides his future (the viewpoint of everyone living here in India). Luckily, his result turned out a lot better than we expected – but not leveling up to his peers. Well, competition is tough, so no blame.

Anyhow, well almost everyone who knew about it started ringing up to congratulate etc. But out of those, there are always one or two, who are always heads up about their own kids rather than others. So, there were few acquaintances of ours, who called up my mom to ask her about the result.

So what exactly the conversation was, I have absolutely no clue. But this is what I interpreted from what my mom told me:

Aunty 1: So, how was his result?
Mom: Eehh. Fine. Scored 88%.
Aunty 1: Hmm. Not that good. He does seem to have the caliber though.
Mom: Yeah. But we are pretty satisfied with this too.
Aunty 1: I doubt you should be. I mean my son got 90% something.
Mom: *hsjdgsjkh* Hmm. Okay.
Aunty 1: <<Blabbers about her friends who secured something around 90 plus minus etc>>
Mom: *STFU you freaking moron. I really don’t care about you or your bloody fake life, you pretentious little bitch*
Aunty 1: <<Still blabbers something about his kid, on how he’s so good in academics etc etc>>
Mom (angrily): Okay. Listen up lady, my kid does everything. He helps out with household chores, drives up even at 12 am to help someone in need etc. He’s not like other bloody kid who just sits at home stuck to his book and getting all arrogant about it. *In your face* (She was pin pointing to her kid)
Aunty 1: <<perhaps silent>> Okay.
Mom Hangs up.

NOTE: All the statements between ” * * ” and  ” << >> ” is what would be going in their minds.

So that was more like “Take that suckaa..!” from my mom to her. And I liked it.

But my brother totally went all haloed on it and said, “You shouldn’t have done that. It’s alright. We should just stay focused on our lives rather than poisoning it with hate for other people. And other people commenting shouldn’t really bother you at all.” I agreed. And she went all happy on how great her kid is. XD

But this sort of thing happened with few more aunties who chit chatted with my mum. And one of them came to us too.

Anyho, I always learn something or the other from him, although he is 3.5 years younger to me. But he is more sensible. I’m still a kid. And whenever I need some guy advice or any other stuff, I go to him.

Apart from that:

Exams from tomorrow. Wish me luck. And I completely forgot:

  1. The weather’s back to 43 degrees. Like I said.
  2. I just have 5 hours in all (even though my exam starts at 2 pm) to complete up with more than 7 lengthy chapters. And microprocessors sucks.
  3. Shit. I forgot this one.
Days remaining for my birthday: 47!
And maybe I think too much or it’s really true but I really wanna put up this question:
Do guys get all unromantic and focused more during exams?
And
Are girls really emotional freaks? (My answer to this: Yes.)
Because apparently my boy (okay. I’ll take the blame for this) doesn’t really bother up much these days. And he said that he really loved me. And now for him it’s more like, “I really don’t care”. (Perhaps this is because of my attitude. And I made him all fucked up with me, which is totally acceptable for his current behavior. But yeah. I do love him.)
Okay. And yes. Chances for this might being my last post are pretty high. Because if he reads this, he’ll definitely kill me.
Peace my little minions! 😛
And yes. He might even kill me for the fact that I even thought that he would kill me for mentioning him. Or that he doesn’t love me anymore. Or how much I think. Or anything.
Okay. I do think a lot.