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Finally. Few days left for the college to be over. And so is my lamenting saga associated with it.

To think of it now, I’ll miss it. Miss my dilapidated building, slower than snail fans, wretched teachers (ok, maybe not), last and most important of all – my friends. These 4 years, just passed by without even our notice. Each day, learning something new without even realizing how it would affect me later. The more I hated it, the more it taught me. Finally settled out in a group of 7 amazing girls, who made my life so much simpler and fun.

Our farewell was a blast. I would give it a 20 on 10. All the teary eyes, hugs, picture sessions, cake, dance what not! I even cried after feeling like a heartless little kid for around 2 hours. 😛 But it was worth it all.

For me, my friends are the only people I care about. Even more than my relationship. Which is kind of mean of me (Yes. I AM A BITCH).

But it’s the end. One part of it. A shell broken to make some room for myself and to prepare to break another.

If you still ask me, Engineering still sucks. And I would probably suggest all people out there whom I secretly loathe, to take up this field in his/her profession, but otherwise no. I’ll probably lock them up until they don’t get that idea out of their mind. 😛

I love my college *just got a mini heart attack thinking that I could ever write this stuff*. May be more than college I’ll miss my friends. Who made me turn for the way I am right now! 🙂

Some Just few fun filled moments which makes me all woozy. 😛 In a good way. *just for clarification purposes* I don’t want to cry.

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I’m the naughty one, without the pout! 😛

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My two life givers. Adity, Ambalika, Me. Look at my fat tummy! Yes. I’m a girl and I do cry over it. 😛

Okay. So it’s been a pretty long since I wrote my previous post. I was just absent due to my sheer boredom, a lack of happening life, my dull brain which was busy sucking on funny cartoon series.

My birthday went great. My sweet babe made my dream of having the perfect birthday come true. After that nothing great happened.

Anyhow, my college is about to open up in an another day and a half.

Am I looking forward?
–> Well, I was initially – till I didn’t get the shock that companies would be coming to recruit us in just few days.  Down

Am I geared up for something so huge and equally life changing?
–> No. Apparently I’m not even remotely eligible for it. Which totally sucks.

Another shock I got just a few minutes back, while I was accidentally surfing up my future, that I’m too late for that too.

So in short, I’m screwed up from top to bottom, without a glitch!

Am I scared?
–> Yes. Because I know most of my friends will be out, happy and joyfully in just a matter of few months with their aspirations and dreams in their hands, and I’ll be as usual just sitting and singing the songs of my procrastination.

Also the fact which scares me to death is : how I’ll tell my parents about my failure.

At times, I feel as if I should give up on everything.

Will it really make a difference?
–> I was a nobody and will be a nobody!

I thought I’ll make my parents proud, I’ll make them feel that I’m not who they think I am. But dang! I just let that dream of mine loose too. I feel frustrated, weak, incompetent. I have let myself down as usual. My perfect dream of having a  perfect life is perfectly shattered into perfect pieces. I feel like a loser. A mere weed in the ocean of beautiful pearl producing oysters.

They say, don’t lose hope. Everything will be alright. Also when God closes one door, he opens another one for you.

Failure

My question to them: When?