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Winds of Change

Part – Un

How would you feel, if you wake up one morning, go to your kitchen to make some coffee for yourself and cannot find your coffee machine at the same spot where you left it last night?

Seems straight from the scene of How I Met Your Mother when Lily moves in with Ted and Marshall.

Well, it’s going to be the same for me from tomorrow evening. No more reason to get up every morning and dreadfully running up and down my place and get ready because my friends would be waiting for me at the Metro station. Numerous messages being exchanged midst “Where are you?”, “How much time till Kashmere Gate?” “Wait for me at McD” “He won’t let us enter the class if we are 5 mins late” etc.

No more reason to bunk to meet your college sweetheart and go out and have fun.

Part – Deux

The part where Lily leaves Marshall for San Francisco only to make each other realize how much they honestly love each other so much. Well the latter comes later.

You know you are meant to be together and things are running perfectly normal, but then all of a sudden, you realize, I need to go out and see the world. Get to know whether I still have the capability to achieve what I desire. Then within a span of few minutes, your priorities just change, you feel trapped because the way you saw your life to be maybe few years back, hasn’t really turned out the way you expected to be. Reason – because you madly fell in love with someone and their priorities became your priorities without they even asking you to change it.

I guess it happens with most of us. Well most may include only 5-10% of the population but still.

You have grown so habitual to waking up at mornings, receiving sweet messages from them to make your day. Or you have someone who can listen to all your complains without a single word, listen to all your weird fantasies without blinking an eye, someone you can run up to when you need to cry or hug. Sad days will become days to strengthen yourself by just keeping it to yourselves or happy days will still be just a simple single “yeay” days because you don’t have someone special to show it off too.

You do know that you still love that person the same way you used to.

I’m already bored writing this. I’m so bored. And I still have one day of college left. With my exam. 😛 I feel so dumb. Maybe I’ll continue this later. 😛

Or maybe not. I know you get bored too by reading me crib all freaking day long! 😛

PS: Try adding silly random tags. Feels awesome. 😀

Okay. So it’s been a pretty long since I wrote my previous post. I was just absent due to my sheer boredom, a lack of happening life, my dull brain which was busy sucking on funny cartoon series.

My birthday went great. My sweet babe made my dream of having the perfect birthday come true. After that nothing great happened.

Anyhow, my college is about to open up in an another day and a half.

Am I looking forward?
–> Well, I was initially – till I didn’t get the shock that companies would be coming to recruit us in just few days.  Down

Am I geared up for something so huge and equally life changing?
–> No. Apparently I’m not even remotely eligible for it. Which totally sucks.

Another shock I got just a few minutes back, while I was accidentally surfing up my future, that I’m too late for that too.

So in short, I’m screwed up from top to bottom, without a glitch!

Am I scared?
–> Yes. Because I know most of my friends will be out, happy and joyfully in just a matter of few months with their aspirations and dreams in their hands, and I’ll be as usual just sitting and singing the songs of my procrastination.

Also the fact which scares me to death is : how I’ll tell my parents about my failure.

At times, I feel as if I should give up on everything.

Will it really make a difference?
–> I was a nobody and will be a nobody!

I thought I’ll make my parents proud, I’ll make them feel that I’m not who they think I am. But dang! I just let that dream of mine loose too. I feel frustrated, weak, incompetent. I have let myself down as usual. My perfect dream of having a  perfect life is perfectly shattered into perfect pieces. I feel like a loser. A mere weed in the ocean of beautiful pearl producing oysters.

They say, don’t lose hope. Everything will be alright. Also when God closes one door, he opens another one for you.

Failure

My question to them: When?